Son i\u015fkence seans\u0131 sonras\u0131nda yar\u0131 \u015fuursuz hale d\u00fc\u015fen mahkumun elleri, yere s\u0131k\u0131ca m\u0131hlanm\u0131\u015f olan tek ki\u015filik demir sandalyenin arkas\u0131na kelep\u00e7elenmi\u015fti. V\u00fccudunun her taraf\u0131ndan dalga dalga i\u00e7ine i\u015fleyen a\u011fr\u0131larla nefesi bir inlemeyle \u00e7\u0131k\u0131yordu. Zifiri karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131n arkas\u0131nda saklanan h\u00fccre duvarlar\u0131, o ac\u0131 iniltiyi ve h\u00fccreye yakla\u015fmakta olan gardiyan\u0131n ayak seslerini deh\u015fetle dinliyordu.<\/p>\n
A\u011fr\u0131lar\u0131n seslendirdi\u011fi \u00fcrpertici inleme ve duvarlar\u0131n korkulu bekleyi\u015fi, gardiyan\u0131n kocaman botuyla demir kap\u0131ya vurmas\u0131yla son buldu. Kap\u0131n\u0131n orta \u00fcst k\u0131sm\u0131ndaki s\u00fcrg\u00fcl\u00fc g\u00f6zetleme deli\u011fini a\u00e7an gardiyan, kibirli, ma\u011frur ve alayc\u0131 bir edayla ba\u011f\u0131rd\u0131:<\/p>\n
\u2014 Kahraman, \u00f6ld\u00fcn m\u00fc?<\/p>\n
\u00d6ne do\u011fru sarkan kafas\u0131n\u0131 g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fckle kald\u0131ran mahkum, \u00e7izgi halinde \u00f6n\u00fcne uzanan \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131n kayna\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ararcas\u0131na bak\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131 kar\u0131\u015fl\u0131k deli\u011fe do\u011fru y\u00fckseltti ve seslendi:<\/p>\n
\u2014 Ya\u015famak daha keyifli.<\/p>\n
Bu cevapla \u00e7\u0131lg\u0131na d\u00f6nen gardiyan, h\u0131zla h\u00fccrenin kap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7t\u0131 ve elini havaya kald\u0131r\u0131p mahkumun kafas\u0131n\u0131 kulak hizas\u0131ndan kopar\u0131rcas\u0131na copunu y\u00fcz\u00fcne yap\u0131\u015ft\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Ald\u0131n m\u0131 keyfini, mahkum!<\/p>\n
\u2014 Ben mahkum de\u011filim. As\u0131l mahkum olan sensin.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Sen kafay\u0131 m\u0131 yedin?<\/p>\n
\u2014 Ben buraya zorla getirildim. Ama sen bu zindana kendi r\u0131zanla geldin. Aram\u0131zdaki tek fark, elindeki cop, belindeki tabanca ve k\u0131yafetin.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Buraya geldim, istersem giderim de. Ama sen gidemezsin. Seni zavall\u0131, kapana k\u0131s\u0131lan fare gibi elimdesin.<\/p>\n
G\u00f6zlerini kapat\u0131p umursamaz bir tav\u0131rla kafas\u0131n\u0131 arkaya do\u011fru sal\u0131veren mahkum, birka\u00e7 saniye ge\u00e7ince, \u00f6nce ferahlam\u0131\u015f\u00e7as\u0131na tebess\u00fcm etti sonra da g\u00fclmeye ba\u015flad\u0131. Vurulmu\u015fa d\u00f6nen gardiyan, mahkumun k\u00e2k\u00fcl\u00fcn\u00fc avu\u00e7lad\u0131:<\/p>\n
\u2014 Neyine g\u00fcl\u00fcyorsun? Kafesteki ku\u015ftan, otopsi odas\u0131ndaki \u00f6l\u00fcden\u2026<\/p>\n
Mahkum gardiyan\u0131n laf\u0131n\u0131 kesti ve g\u00f6zlerini a\u00e7madan konu\u015fmaya ba\u015flad\u0131:<\/p>\n
\u2014 Ne kadar g\u00fczel bir deniz. Alt\u0131n renkli kumsala bakar m\u0131s\u0131n? Hi\u00e7 b\u00f6yle c\u0131v\u0131l c\u0131v\u0131l yer g\u00f6rmemi\u015ftim. Ah \u015fu k\u0131zlar, denizdeki dalgalar gibi narin ve k\u0131vraklar. Mahkum gardiyan, sen i\u011fren\u00e7 kokan h\u00fccrede elleri ba\u011fl\u0131 arkada\u015f\u0131nla egonu tatmin etmeye devam et. Ben mahallenizdeki k\u0131zlarla sahilin keyfini \u00e7\u0131karaca\u011f\u0131m.<\/p>\n
Gardiyan; d\u00f6vmekle, korkutmakla bir yere varamayaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 anlam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Ma\u011flubiyeti kabul etmi\u015f g\u00f6r\u00fcnmemek i\u00e7in, yoruluncaya kadar mahkumu d\u00f6vd\u00fckten sonra, h\u00fccreden \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131 ve \u00f6fkeyle demir kap\u0131y\u0131 kilitleyerek deli\u011fi kapatt\u0131. Mahkum arkas\u0131ndan hayk\u0131rd\u0131:<\/p>\n
\u2014 Ben \u00f6zg\u00fcr\u00fcm! Ben \u00f6zg\u00fcr\u00fcm! Ben \u00f6zg\u00fcr\u00fcm!<\/p>\n
** ** ** **<\/p>\n
D\u00fcnyada hi\u00e7 kimse mahkum edilemez.<\/p>\n
Mahkumiyet hukuki bir mefhum. Ceza\u00ee bir m\u00fceyyide. Mahdut bir yerde, hareket kabiliyetinden ve davran\u0131\u015f serbestisinden farkl\u0131 \u00f6l\u00e7\u00fclerde ve de\u011fi\u015fen s\u00fcrelerle mahrum b\u0131rak\u0131lmak.<\/p>\n
\u0130nsan\u0131n iki farkl\u0131 ciheti var: Biri, be\u015f duyu organ\u0131yla alakal\u0131 olan\u00a0beden\u00ee-madd\u00ee<\/strong>\u00a0<\/strong>ciheti, di\u011feri; fikrinin, ruhunun, idrakinin, \u015fuurunun, inanc\u0131n\u0131 ihtiva eden\u00a0manevi<\/strong>\u00a0ciheti..<\/p>\n Birinci cihet klasik edebiyatta \u201c\u015fe\u015f cihet\u201d tabiriyle ifade edilir. B\u00fct\u00fcn insanlarda ayn\u0131d\u0131r. Necip Faz\u0131l, Zindandan Mehmed\u2019de Mektup \u015fiirinde bu \u201calt\u0131 cihete\u201d \u015f\u00f6yle at\u0131f yapar:<\/p>\n Avlu\u2026 Bir uzun yol\u2026 Tu\u011fla d\u00f6\u015feli, \u0130nsanlar\u0131n ay\u0131rt edici hususiyetleri, ikinci cihetle alakal\u0131. Zira insan\u0131 kendisi yapar ve benli\u011finin \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc kazand\u0131r\u0131r.\u00a0<\/strong>Bir insana h\u00fcviyetini kazand\u0131ran hususiyetler gayr-i maddi olan ikinci boyutta sakl\u0131ysa, o insan\u0131n bir mahkum say\u0131labilmesi i\u00e7in onun bu ikinci boyutunun s\u0131n\u0131rland\u0131r\u0131lm\u0131\u015f olmas\u0131 gerekir.<\/strong>\u00a0Halbuki, bir insan\u0131n duymak, g\u00f6rmek, hissetmek, tatmak ve koklamak gibi bedeni y\u00f6nleri bir ba\u015fkas\u0131 taraf\u0131ndan s\u0131n\u0131rland\u0131r\u0131labildi\u011fi halde; d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmesine, idrak etmesine, benli\u011finin derinliklerinde belli bir inan\u00e7 beslemesine, kendine ait bir d\u00fcnya telakkisi geli\u015ftirmesine veya zihninde bir hayat tarz\u0131 tersim etmesine hi\u00e7bir \u015fekilde mani olunamaz.\u00a0Hatta \u00f6l\u00fcme mahkum edilip maddi hayat\u0131 sona erdirilse dahi<\/strong>; o ki\u015finin \u015fuurunda ya\u015fatt\u0131\u011f\u0131 de\u011ferler manzumesi yok olmaz. \u0130nsan\u0131 bu zaviyeden ele ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131zda, k\u0131s\u0131tlanmas\u0131, zapturapt alt\u0131na al\u0131nmas\u0131 m\u00fcmk\u00fcn de\u011fildir.<\/p>\n \u0130nsan\u0131n mahkum olmaktan masun olabilmesi ve h\u00fcr olma yolunu kendine daima a\u00e7\u0131k tutabilmesi<\/strong>\u00a0i\u00e7in maddi hudutlar\u0131n\u0131 a\u015f\u0131p gayr-i madd\u00ee olan ikinci cihete kanatlanmas\u0131 icap eder.<\/p>\n Mahkum olmaya en m\u00fcsait kimse; hislerine esir ve hayat\u0131 maddiyatla mahdut ki\u015fidir.<\/strong>\u00a0Varl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n ifadesi maddi cihetin tatmininden ibarettir. Bu tatmin kanallar\u0131 t\u0131kand\u0131\u011f\u0131nda \u201cmahkum\u201d olacakt\u0131r.<\/p>\n \u0130nsan, mevcudiyetinin hedefini birinci cihetten kurtar\u0131p ikinci cihete teksif etti\u011fi nispette potansiyel bir mahkum olmaktan uzakla\u015fm\u0131\u015f olacakt\u0131r. Maddi cihetten kurtulup gayr-i maddi cihete terfi edince;\u00a0kuytu bir \u00e7ukurda, zifiri karanl\u0131k bir k\u00f6\u015fede ve en nam\u00fcsait \u015fartlarda bile, kendisinden ba\u015fka kimsenin ula\u015famayaca\u011f\u0131 \u00e2z\u00e2de bir \u015fuur, ser\u00e2z\u00e2t bir fikir ve m\u00fcstahkem bir inan\u00e7 ta\u015f\u0131yabilecektir.<\/strong><\/p>\n Kelimeler:<\/strong><\/p>\n H\u00fcviye<\/strong>t: Kimlik;\u00a0M\u00fceyyide<\/strong>: Yapt\u0131r\u0131m;\u00a0Telakki<\/strong>: Anlay\u0131\u015f, G\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f, Kabul;\u00a0Tersim<\/strong>: Resmini Yapma;\u00a0Manz\u00fbme<\/strong>: Dizge, Naz\u0131m, Ahenkli bir B\u00fct\u00fcn;\u00a0Masun<\/strong>: Korunan, Korunmu\u015f, Saklanm\u0131\u015f;\u00a0Ser\u00e2z\u00e2t<\/strong>: Serbest ve \u00d6zg\u00fcr;\u00a0\u00c2z\u00e2de<\/strong>: Serbest;\u00a0Teksif<\/strong>: Yo\u011funla\u015ft\u0131rma, S\u0131k\u0131la\u015ft\u0131rma, Koyula\u015ft\u0131rma, Odaklanma;\u00a0M\u00fcstahkem<\/strong>: Sa\u011flamla\u015ft\u0131r\u0131lm\u0131\u015f.<\/p>\n ——-<\/p>\n Ser\u00e2z\u00e2t.com’da; sadece Necip YILDIRIM’\u0131n \u015fiir ve makaleleri yer almaktad\u0131r. B\u00fct\u00fcn haklar\u0131 sakl\u0131d\u0131r. \u0130zinsiz kopyalanamaz ve ne\u015fredilemez.<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Son i\u015fkence seans\u0131 sonras\u0131nda yar\u0131 \u015fuursuz hale d\u00fc\u015fen mahkumun elleri, yere s\u0131k\u0131ca m\u0131hlanm\u0131\u015f olan tek ki\u015filik demir sandalyenin arkas\u0131na kelep\u00e7elenmi\u015fti.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":1400,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[18,22],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1044","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-deneme-yazilari-ahmed-necip-yildirim-denemeler","category-hikayeler"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.necipyildirim.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1044","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.necipyildirim.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.necipyildirim.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.necipyildirim.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.necipyildirim.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1044"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.necipyildirim.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1044\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.necipyildirim.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/1400"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.necipyildirim.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1044"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.necipyildirim.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1044"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.necipyildirim.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1044"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}
\nK\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 tu\u011flalar alt\u0131 k\u00f6\u015feli.
\nBu yol da tutuktur hapse d\u00fc\u015feli\u2026<\/p>\n