{"id":1975,"date":"2018-05-04T11:34:14","date_gmt":"2018-05-04T11:34:14","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.serazat.com\/?p=1975\/"},"modified":"2018-05-04T11:34:14","modified_gmt":"2018-05-04T11:34:14","slug":"elveda","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.necipyildirim.com\/tr\/elveda\/","title":{"rendered":"Elveda…"},"content":{"rendered":"

Geride kalacak her\u015feyi yan\u0131ma alarak; kendimi geride b\u0131rakarak gidiyorum.<\/p>\n

\u0130mtiyaz kal\u0131pta g\u00f6r\u00fcnse de, fayda bo\u015fluktan gelir diyen \u00c7inli bilge, \u201cEvin ya\u015fanan yeri duvarlar de\u011fil, duvarlar\u0131n kucaklad\u0131\u011f\u0131 bo\u015fluk. Barda\u011f\u0131n serin suyla dolan k\u0131sm\u0131, kilden bedeni de\u011fil, o s\u00fcsl\u00fc seramiklerin ku\u015fatt\u0131\u011f\u0131 bo\u015fluk\u2026\u201d der.<\/p>\n

\u0130\u00e7inde bo\u015fluk olmasa, kervandaki devenin boynunda as\u0131l\u0131 \u00e7andan ses \u00e7\u0131kabilir miydi, \u201cGidiyorum\u201d diye?<\/p>\n

Benden kalan bo\u015flu\u011fu b\u0131rak\u0131yorum ard\u0131ma.<\/p>\n

Bak, buraday\u0131m ve i\u015fte gidiyorum: G\u00f6ze d\u00f6nemeyece\u011fini bilen g\u00f6zya\u015f\u0131, g\u00fcle d\u00f6nemeyece\u011fini bilen koku ve s\u00eeneye d\u00f6nemeyece\u011fini bilen \u00e2h gibi. Kuruyaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131 bilsem de, s\u00fcz\u00fclece\u011fim yanaklara\u2026 Nak\u015fedece\u011fim hatt\u0131 okuyabilir misin? Farkedebilir misin, etraf\u0131na sa\u00e7aca\u011f\u0131m kokuyu, sem\u00e2ya g\u00f6nderece\u011fim sesleri?<\/p>\n

Saklayaca\u011f\u0131m b\u00fct\u00fcn s\u00f6zleri. Ved\u00e2 an\u0131nda g\u00f6zlerde saklanan ya\u015f misali. \u00c7ok konu\u015fmayaca\u011f\u0131m.\u00a0Zira m\u00e2n\u00e2ya vedad\u0131r, s\u00f6ze ba\u015flamak.<\/strong>\u00a0Kader bo\u011faz\u0131n\u0131 s\u0131k\u0131p ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6ne e\u011fince; ibrik de dolulu\u011fa veda etti\u011fini bildi\u011finden h\u0131\u00e7k\u0131r\u0131klarla bo\u011faz\u0131 d\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmlenmiyor mu?<\/p>\n

Ah, varl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 kalbin yan\u0131\u015f\u0131na; g\u00fcl, varl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 goncan\u0131n \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcne bor\u00e7lu.<\/strong>\u00a0Ama sen merak etme: bilirim goncan\u0131n yok olu\u015funu g\u00fcl diye kutlad\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131. T\u0131pk\u0131 gen\u00e7li\u011fin erimesini \u2018tecr\u00fcbe\u2019 diye sevdikleri gibi.<\/p>\n

Her veda, h\u00e2t\u0131ralar\u0131n u\u011furland\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir cenaze. Veda, ayr\u0131l\u0131k kokan g\u00fcl; onun i\u00e7in h\u00fcz\u00fcnl\u00fc.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Neden bunca zaman gitmedim? \u201cDikenden ayr\u0131lan g\u00fcl uzun ya\u015famaz<\/strong>\u201d diye korktum. \u201cNe olur gideceksen haber vermeden git\u201d diyen bendim halbuki. \u201cGiderken yan\u0131mdan ge\u00e7me; ate\u015fe hava gelince alevleri harlat\u0131r\u201d demi\u015ftim.<\/p>\n

Goncal\u0131\u011fa veda, g\u00fcle kucak a\u00e7makt\u0131r:<\/strong>\u00a0Ana karn\u0131na veda etmeden d\u00fcnyaya; d\u00fcnya goncas\u0131na veda edilmeden ebediyet g\u00fcl\u00fcne kucak a\u00e7abilir miydik? Bedende a\u00e7\u0131lan her yara akacak kan\u0131n habercisi de\u011fil mi?<\/p>\n

Tomurcuklar, s\u00eenelerini yar\u0131p dal budak ellerini uzatarak esip ge\u00e7en ilkbahar r\u00fczgar\u0131na son kez dokunmak istemiyorlar m\u0131?<\/p>\n

Gitmek ne, kalmak nedir? Ba\u011flan\u0131\u015f\u0131m\u0131z mesafe, zaman ve mekana raptedilmi\u015f miydi ki!<\/strong><\/p>\n

——-<\/p>\n

Ser\u00e2z\u00e2t.com’da; sadece Necip YILDIRIM’\u0131n \u015fiir ve makaleleri yer almaktad\u0131r. B\u00fct\u00fcn haklar\u0131 sakl\u0131d\u0131r. \u0130zinsiz kopyalanamaz ve ne\u015fredilemez.<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Geride kalacak her\u015feyi yan\u0131ma alarak; kendimi geride b\u0131rakarak gidiyorum. \u0130mtiyaz kal\u0131pta g\u00f6r\u00fcnse de, fayda bo\u015fluktan gelir diyen \u00c7inli bilge, \u201cEvin<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":1976,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[18],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1975","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-deneme-yazilari-ahmed-necip-yildirim-denemeler"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.necipyildirim.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1975","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.necipyildirim.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.necipyildirim.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.necipyildirim.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.necipyildirim.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1975"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.necipyildirim.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1975\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.necipyildirim.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/1976"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.necipyildirim.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1975"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.necipyildirim.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1975"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.necipyildirim.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1975"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}